Perspective

 Its not funny but interesting how we gain perspective. Things in life teach us lessons and it's up to us which lessons we learn, sometimes. 

I dont understand the stigma behind keeping everything to yourself. I don't understand why we hide tragedy. I understand that not everybody is here to cheer you on; my trust has been tested so much in the last year. People only share tragedy when you go through something similar. Which I get, but I don't like secrets. I don't like keeping them, I'm a very open and honest person. All of my mistakes, I made. All of my past, is my past and I have to accept the things I have done and said regardless of how fun that isn't. 

So I'm sorry, but I don't get pretending everything is fine when it isn't. Nobody gives you extra attention in sad times, they honestly seem to avoid you because they are so uncomfortable and don't know what to say. And that's okay because sometimes silence is the most valuable thing you can give. Stop the pity looks. Let the person know they truly have your support and just check on them. I will honestly say that this is the hardest thing I've dealt with and I've handled it better than anything because of the people around me. 

I don't want to keep secrets. I want to let women know that it is okay to grieve this kind of thing. And you don't have to hide it and hope people don't make comments that make you want to knock their lights out. You have to move on but its okay to guide your thoughts and feelings while you're going through something. 

Because at the end of the day, nobody is going to relate 100% to your life. Even your best friend that has practically lived these experiences with you. Even your parents who have been in your life and your main supporters since you showed up on Earth. Nobody goes through everything with you. Somebody might make a comment while walking past you that you overhear that changes your entire day, while another person walks by the same group and doesn't ever acknowledge the comment. Everybody is on their own path. 

And it's okay. If we all completely related to everything, it wouldn't be the same world thats for sure. And I'm not one to enjoy tragedy, I wish all the bad things in the world were erased for everybody but there has to be bad in order to be good. 

So I just use the good times to remind myself what life is truly about in the bad times.