Story
It seems almost if the people around you don't expect you to live their life, they expect you to live the story that fits into their life. They want you to be positive, and the second your world gets dark, nobody is around. It gets lonely. Being lonely can be intense, if you're anything like me. I wish I had confidence embedded in my soul. But I don't. I doubt myself. I doubt why people want to be in my life. I doubt the things I do. I literally have to prove to people that I can do the things they think I can't, but in reality I'm doing it to prove to myself that I can (even though I know in my heart that I can). So if you're like me, loneliness fills your head with doubts and worries and self-deprecating thoughts. You question everything and nothing all at once and it's truly exhausting. But when you're the loud, open person that I am, nobody wants to see that. They want to see my energy, my smile. They want to experience my jolts of random energy ...